Let's recap.

It's November. Last time I blogged was September. Wow.

So since school started, I've had no life, really. Taking twenty units is no joke - it consumes you. But thankfully, I'm hanging in there. A little stressed out but I'm hanging in there. Within the past few months, I've realized who my friends are, who they once were and who I've enjoyed my time with. It's okay when life takes over, because you start to realize a lot of new things. And you start to grow.

Last month, I lost a really good friend. He was "accidentally" shot by Anaheim police officers and was pronounced dead when approaching the nearest hospital. Tragic. Pure tragedy. I've gotten to accept the fact that life is not fair, and you really must live it up because you may not know when an "accident" can take you away. I've also realized to be thankful with the people in your life and be thankful that you're a part of theirs. Life is way too short to hold a grudge, so tell the ones you haven't talk to in a while how much you care. I know I have.

Within the past week, I've learned that we, as people, can really make a difference and make history in life. Although, at times it can be biased, you can at least say you're living history. I am, because I'm living in the moment when a black man became president of the United States. Anything is possible. In history books, my grandchildren can study about the twin towers, about gay rights movement and that our first black president was elected in the year 2008. Amazing, much? I think so.

So, a lot has happened. And there was a lot of mixed emotions. But, I'm okay with where I am in life, and though it can be tedious and repetitive, I'm enjoying my time. I'm just being thankful, what else can I do?

Just smile. <3

On repeat.

Wake up, school, drive home, sleep.
Wake up, school, drive home, sleep.

Life is slow at the moment. The pace is lengthy and the days seem to be on repeat. It’s like as if you’re watching a movie and the scene keeps going back, and back, and back. There are moments when the plot because to thicken but then it goes back to its repetitive prospect. However, as much as I can complain and dwell on the facts that make me feel less of myself, and is not as horrible as most people have it, I take time to thank God that He gave me a chance to wake up today; to see the sun shine this morning, the wind brushing against my face, and air so clean as I breathe. I’m thankful to walk across the green park, sit on the cool bench, and touch the gentle leaves falling, marking the autumnal equinox arriving.

You’re generously given two choices in life: you live it or you try to. When you try, you make an effort and simply settle when you think it’s good enough. When you live life, you do it spontaneously. Life tends to be short to some people, and no one can tell if they’re one of those people. So don’t try to find out.

Just go, and live.

Goodnight. <3

Respect today.

It's 9.11

Today marks, what? Seven years. Those who have lost a loved one seven years ago from today, we honor them for being the great citizens that they were. And I hope we put an end to terrorism.

Also, today is the viewing of Kevin Viet Tran. He unfortunately died from a motorcycle accident last friday, the 5th of September, at the young age of 20 years old. A handsome, courageous young man. This whole time, it was bugging me why he made such an affect towards me (not as great of an affect he made to his friends & family but to an acquaintance) and I just realize that we have met before. It was on our first day of school this semester. We both wondered why one of our friends is attending our school when he went to a university. And I only got a smile from you, Kevin. You were so young, you just turned 20...

May you rest in peace this coming saturday.

Those who are reading, please take the time to realize how valuable life is. Tell the ones you love that you love them. Hold the ones you haven't held on to in a while. Kiss the ones you feel like giving a kiss to, because you never know when life can be unpredictable and can be taken away with just a blink.

Kevin, you taught me & many others a valuable thing today. That life isn't as it always seems, but as long as we live it up, we can die happy. You opened my eyes, our eyes, to all the things we took for granted, and it's unfortunate that it had to be something like this to allow our eyes to be open and yours to be closed. But thank you, and God bless you and your family.

Have a great day everyone. <3

Re-started.

From the comments I get from my cousins, few friends & my sister, I realized that this time - I have changed. I'm not sure yet for the better, nor can I prove it to you myself, but I feel it, and it's only up to you to recognize it, too. It sounds very familiar, I know, saying that "I'm changing" or "Now, I'm a lot different than before". At that time, I was really mostly boasting it rather than just being it. And now I can say, I am being it. Being my change that is inevitable. So far, I like it.

I went out to dinner with a couple people last week. I had fun, and I missed them so much within my summer, it sucks. We had some good laughs and good talks. What stuck with me though was when my friend told me something about a girl who hates me. She said, "I hate people who hate me." Now, this isn't going to be an arguement of any sort, however, for the record: that's being a hypocrite, don't you think? What bothers me the most is that what if I don't hate you? How do you know for certain I do? There's a difference with disliking someone and hating someone. Disliking someone, you can still tolerate that person. Hating someone, there's zero tolerance there. So, I dislike you. But hating you? It's very funny because I am known to not hate anyone for any reason. Don't believe me? You don't have to. There's people in my life that know for a fact.

Anyway, here's a quote that is in honor of you:
"Women can fake orgasms, but men can fake relationships."

Til next time.<3

Finallybackhome<3

Being in the Philippines for a month can make you really miss home. Although, I do miss the Philippines, my family, the lifestyle... but I don't think I'd ever get used to it. Who knows.

Finally, I feel 120% happier than I have been in a long, long time. I underestimated this single life. I lost focus on reaching my goals, but! I am finally jumping back. With all the guys I dated in the Philippines... I seem to laugh at relationships now-a-days. Me liking a guy, again? Nahh, I'm good. I thank God that I feel a lot better and it's come to my realization that there's more to life than chasing after a boy. Hahaha.

Yay, I'm free. I am happy. :)

See you around, readers<3